I can't believe 2009 will be over in a few hours; its been an interesting year...my year started off a bit on the sad side as I ended a six month relationship with Jake; the two of us just didn't see eye to eye in the end. He was more party, party, drink, drink...while I was more hang, hang, no, no. The break up was bittersweet, on one hand I was glad to end things with him; being with Jake made me realize that I needed to have fun with life. Enjoy my time, go out a bit more, and not to take things to serious. After the break with Jake I turned to Stephanie (Who I crushed six months earlier to be with Jake) she just gets me and we click but by this time she had a new boy in her life. I decided to return to one of my favorite things: writing. I began to work on a short novel and continued with my poems. The next few months went well and then a new boy entered my life by the name of David. He was attractive, he was friendly, he was David; me recently breaking up wasn't looking for anything serious. I was just looking for a person to talk to and hang out with; and that's what we did. David became a really great friend and the times we hung out were always fun; and work seemed to be going great. Job #1 (Law Firm Job) was getting more and more interesting; I began to learn more and take on more responsibilities. Working on different cases, learning about the clients, and learning from the attorny's was amazing. I also decided to be more social/out going, going to clubs and social events with friends was always fun; there is never a dull moment when it comes to friends.
Along the way my friendship with David seemed to feel more then just a friendship; but we both knew it wasn't a relationship it was just a friendship. When July came I finally found the time to take part in the NO H8 Campaing Shoot; as a bisexual male being part of the campaing means so much. I'm all for equal rights; and its unfair that we don't have the same rights as everyone else. The photo session was fun and the photographer Adam is very talented. As the summer continued it was time to take a vacation, that's when my cousin Rosemary and I decided to take a trip to Cancun. We spend a whole week out there, Cancun was so breath taking. The water was so blue and clear, the people were friendly, the clubs were fun, the Mayan Ruins were amazing, the entire vacation was worth wild. Cancun was amazing but I was excited to return back home that second week of August; it was back to both jobs. Being out in Cancun made me realized that I had lost touch with another love of mine: photography. I had been so occupied with both jobs and so busy with other things that I hadn't shoot in nearly a year and a half; so I decided to pick up my camera and shoot again. I shoot for about a week but then realized that I really didn't enjoy it as I did for those 4 years of my life; devoting my entire life to it. I decided to put away my camera and continue writing my short novel; during the next few weeks/months I decided to date. There was no special guy/girl in my life; and I was fine with that.
I continued to focus on my law firm job and my writing but then Chris came into the picture. Chris took the first step and wanting to get to know me; and I'm going to be honest I wasn't into him at all. He wasn't the type of guy I would date, so I didn't think much of him. Chris then began to tell me about himself, his family, his life, and his passion for music. And it made me see him in another way; so I slowly let him in. The more we talked, the more we hung out, the more I began to realize he was I good guy. I decided to fully let him in but we decided to take things slow; the holidays were just around the corner and I was excited to spend them with Chris. But Chris went behind his own word; I guess just believe he was different but I was wrong. Then I ended up finding out a few things he said; which made me feel like our entire relationship was a lie. Like always, my writing kept me focus... Thanksgiving and Christmas with the entire family was fun; those memories will stay with me forever. As I sit here and remember all of 2009; all the new friends I've made, the writing I've complished, the law firm job that I love and continue to learn more about, the relationships, the family, I guess 2009 wasn't that bad after all. But I'm so ready for 2010; I'm ready to head back to school, I'm already working on a second novel, I'm rebuilding my darkroom and ready to be shooting, and I'm just ready to see what else 2010 brings....
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