The Good. The Bad. & Goodbye 2009.

I can't believe 2009 will be over in a few hours; its been an interesting year...my year started off a bit on the sad side as I ended a six month relationship with Jake; the two of us just didn't see eye to eye in the end. He was more party, party, drink, drink...while I was more hang, hang, no, no. The break up was bittersweet, on one hand I was glad to end things with him; being with Jake made me realize that I needed to have fun with life. Enjoy my time, go out a bit more, and not to take things to serious. After the break with Jake I turned to Stephanie (Who I crushed six months earlier to be with Jake) she just gets me and we click but by this time she had a new boy in her life. I decided to return to one of my favorite things: writing. I began to work on a short novel and continued with my poems. The next few months went well and then a new boy entered my life by the name of David. He was attractive, he was friendly, he was David; me recently breaking up wasn't looking for anything serious. I was just looking for a person to talk to and hang out with; and that's what we did. David became a really great friend and the times we hung out were always fun; and work seemed to be going great. Job #1 (Law Firm Job) was getting more and more interesting; I began to learn more and take on more responsibilities. Working on different cases, learning about the clients, and learning from the attorny's was amazing. I also decided to be more social/out going, going to clubs and social events with friends was always fun; there is never a dull moment when it comes to friends.

Along the way my friendship with David seemed to feel more then just a friendship; but we both knew it wasn't a relationship it was just a friendship. When July came I finally found the time to take part in the NO H8 Campaing Shoot; as a bisexual male being part of the campaing means so much. I'm all for equal rights; and its unfair that we don't have the same rights as everyone else. The photo session was fun and the photographer Adam is very talented. As the summer continued it was time to take a vacation, that's when my cousin Rosemary and I decided to take a trip to Cancun. We spend a whole week out there, Cancun was so breath taking. The water was so blue and clear, the people were friendly, the clubs were fun, the Mayan Ruins were amazing, the entire vacation was worth wild. Cancun was amazing but I was excited to return back home that second week of August; it was back to both jobs. Being out in Cancun made me realized that I had lost touch with another love of mine: photography. I had been so occupied with both jobs and so busy with other things that I hadn't shoot in nearly a year and a half; so I decided to pick up my camera and shoot again. I shoot for about a week but then realized that I really didn't enjoy it as I did for those 4 years of my life; devoting my entire life to it. I decided to put away my camera and continue writing my short novel; during the next few weeks/months I decided to date. There was no special guy/girl in my life; and I was fine with that.

I continued to focus on my law firm job and my writing but then Chris came into the picture. Chris took the first step and wanting to get to know me; and I'm going to be honest I wasn't into him at all. He wasn't the type of guy I would date, so I didn't think much of him. Chris then began to tell me about himself, his family, his life, and his passion for music. And it made me see him in another way; so I slowly let him in. The more we talked, the more we hung out, the more I began to realize he was I good guy. I decided to fully let him in but we decided to take things slow; the holidays were just around the corner and I was excited to spend them with Chris. But Chris went behind his own word; I guess just believe he was different but I was wrong. Then I ended up finding out a few things he said; which made me feel like our entire relationship was a lie. Like always, my writing kept me focus... Thanksgiving and Christmas with the entire family was fun; those memories will stay with me forever. As I sit here and remember all of 2009; all the new friends I've made, the writing I've complished, the law firm job that I love and continue to learn more about, the relationships, the family, I guess 2009 wasn't that bad after all. But I'm so ready for 2010; I'm ready to head back to school, I'm already working on a second novel, I'm rebuilding my darkroom and ready to be shooting, and I'm just ready to see what else 2010 brings....

Chillin' on Glee

So I haven't jumped on the 'Glee' train like everyone else but I did notice this song by one of the actors on the show: Mark Salling who plays Puck. There's just something about the song, I guess the lyrics; you can really tell how much this guy enjoy's his job. I also enjoyed the video he made for the song (link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jFClq0L9kd0)

Music Monday

So just like everyone in this world and like every young adult: I LIVE IN MUSIC. There's so many styles of music and artist that are really amazing but I'm the type of guy that likes to go for the rare stuff, the unsigned or youtube artist :) I joined youtube back in 2006 and have watched lots of videos; I've spend most of my time seeing cover version of songs. Along the way I happen to stumble across four amazing young artist. They each have something different and they are very talented; Dan Talevski, Zae, Jolene, and Erika David. I love Dan's voice his original song "Rocket & Go" is one of my all time favorite songs (link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OfSfDL4Ke5w). Zae has that R&B flavor going on, this guy has talent for miles. Jolene is such a sweet heart, I loved her cover version of Melody Thornton's "Space" (link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1oxC8DnJ3OQ). Finally Ms. Erika her voice is so smooth and her looks are amazing; I love logging into my youtube account and seeing that these rising artist have new videos. I've included their youtube links, check out their videos, subscribe and favorite them ;)



http://www.youtube.com/DanJT87 - http://www.youtube.com/JayelMusiq



http://www.youtube.com/jolenexo - http://www.youtube.com/ekaiann

The Beautiful Life: TBL "Is Back!"

'What we feel like we're doing is creating, in some ways, an industry first,' Ashton Kutcher said. 'A show that couldn't find its legs on television, we believe can find its legs on the Web.'

Thanks to HP and YouTube, " The Beautifu Life: TBL" gets a second chance at life. The axed drama show will air the two episodes that The CW scheduled to air but did not eventually, plus the three episodes that went into production but never ran Unlike the initial plan to air the unseen episodes on The CW this Summer, it will now be revived on the popular video-sharing website starting Monday, December 21 According to Reuters, the first two episodes that managed to air on the network would be re-aired on YouTube starting this Thursday without commercial breaks. "When 'The Beautiful Life' concluded on broadcast television, we were deluged by fans imploring us to bring back 'TBL'," producer Ashton Kutcher said. "Working with innovative companies like HP and YouTube, we are thrilled to be ending this year by releasing the remaining episodes of 'The Beautiful Life' and taking part in a unique marketing program that could only occur online." While naturally YouTube presents webisodes about 5 to 15 minutes long, Kutcher is confident tha the 40-minute episodes will live up to its expectation. "I would bargain that people will be willing to sit a lot longer if the picture looks a lot better," Kutcher told Reuters Kutcher is also looking far in the future of the show, saying that if the show could gather enough audience, then he would be able to attract sponsors to finance more episodes solely for web.
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I am so excited that the show is returning; I'm not much of a tv guy but when I saw this fall's line up besides Melrose Place 'TBL' also caught my eye. I really did enjoy the pilot episode; I felt like this show was Mischa Barton's comeback but before I knew it The CW decided to cancel the show after only two episodes because of its low rating. So we never really got to see the characters storylines play out... that's until now, thanks to YouTube & HP ;] Watch episodes here: http://www.youtube.com/TBL

Best of 2009

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AMA's

So the AMA's took place last night and it was a night to remember; I felt that Janet Jackson did a good job by opening the show. Daughtry & Shakira did a pretty okay job; they were my favorite but they weren't bad. Jay-Z & Alicia Keys were one of my favorite performences; I love that track. Moving on to Lady Gaga we all know that the breakthrough artist award was her's; I mean we still are trying to figure out who the hell is Gloriana, lol. Her performance was also one of my other favorite's; she never dissapoints. The Black Eyed Peas killed it with their performance, "Meet Me Half Ways" loved it. Rihanna wasn't my favorite at all; I don't know to me there was nothing special at all. Timbaland & Nelly Furtado did a fair job; Emine was good. But I guess my favorite over all were Jennifer Lopez & Adam Lambert; I loved the whole theme Jennifer Lopez did and I'm loving the track as well. And yes she did fall while performing but she picked herself up and continued doing her thing like nothing happen. I'l included a video with her performance

The night included other artist performing like Whitney, Carrie, Green Day... but besides the performances they were award given out and the King Of Pop Mr. MJ received two. Closing the night was the amazing Adam Lambet; his new track FYE is good; but his performance was the one that everyone is talking about today. I will say it was different but I loved it, to me nothing was wrong, I mean its 2009 and he's a performer he is suppose to keep us entertained. The guy on guy kiss and all the touching was fun; I also will post a video of his performance. Over this year the AMA's was great for the mpost part every performer that took the stage did an amazing job.

Melrose Place.

So I never really watched the original Melrose Place back in the '90's but I was excited to see the remake; I love the new 90210 and was excited to see how they would recreate the iconic show. Right from the start I fell in love with the actors they casted: Ashlee Simpson-Wentz, Jessica Lucas, Katie Cassidy, and Stephanie Jacabson; I eventually also fell in love with the males too. The big questtion was "Who from the original Melrose was coming back?" The season started off weak; ratings haven't really improved since its September 8 debut. But I have grown to love the characters, storylines, and over all show.

The Comeback Kid.

So I'm back "AGAIN" the last time I posted something was back in March; at the time I had broken up with Jake in January and then I started talking to David in Feb. This with David were pretty interesting and fun we never officially gave wach other titles as boyfriends or anything of that sort and I think thats why we had a pretty good relationship. The relationship between David and I lasted from Feb-Aug; the two of us just decided to remain good friends. I then put my focus into work and writing, I've been working on a short novel titled 'The life of Derrick James' i might change the title; in August I also took a vacation to Cancun; it was amazinh out there nothing but fun. I had to get used to the sticky, humid weather but the water amazing, the people friendly, It was a blast, Rosemary went as well the two of us spend seven great days out three doing all sort of things. A few short thats after returning back from Cancun I began to talk to a new guy by the name of Chris. It was just friend talk at first but the more we bgan to learn about one another the more I began to take an interest in this guy. August turned into September and September turned into October; then on Ocotber 18 Chris and I became official. I was excited to start a new relationship; the two of us spend as much time as we could together. Everything seemed to be going great then exactly one month after getting together [Monday November 16]; we bumped into a little situation. So Chris' parents found out he was bisexual and kicked him out the house; he was scared and didnt know what to do. He said he lost everything and needed a few days to kick himself up; so I respected his decision and gave him a few days to know what to do. It's been almost a week and I still havent heard from him but I talked to his bff and she told me he had moved in with his father and was doing good; I was glad to hear he was doing much better but it made me realize that he really didnt need me around. So I've decided to forget about Chris and move on; as much as I do like the guy I feel hes better off without me. Thats why I'm back here; to work on my writing, enjoy life, and have fun. I'm too young to be in a relationship. While in cancun we took a bunch of pictures, I'll include a few links here and I'll upload the rest soon ;)

http://twitpic.com/lpls6 / http://twitpic.com/m1nai / http://pixelpipe.com/item/a91fb0e4-005f-4bdb-bf0b-ade466d9fb0a

It's Green Month

Yay, so I'ma be moving home soon =]
Yay, with Cindy&hearts.

It's ♥ Day [AGAIN]

So it’s Valentine’s Day today, nothing really that special about today for me at least. Today should be fun; going to hang out with Rosemary, Cindy and little baby Kuno. He keeps getting bigger and bigger; pretty soon I will no longer be calling him baby, lol. Anyways today’s mean something more than just hearts, hugs, kisses and all that other junk. I’ve learned something new last night; Valentine’s Day is about showing love not only to that special love one in you’re life but to everyone. Going to hospital’s being there for patients’ some of these patients are living there final days and even a since rose, card, or something within that nature can really mean a lot to them.

Less then a month ago I was in a five month relationship; that I learned a lot about myself and life. I’m a young 20 year old male that still has lots to discover and achieve; and falling in love isn’t something in that list. Yeah there are people that I’m talking to, or where talking to but for now it’s nothing more that just a real great/special friendship.

This week has been okay, nothing to crazy or amazing going on. Just taking everyday as it comes, work, work, and some social time.

I call her "Kashioff"

So there's this female...

New Drama. Same Zip Code. [90210]

So back in the 90's lived a show called Beverly Hills, 90210; the show lasted 10 season's, and now almost eight years later the show was remade...

[to be continued]

The Second Month, Rolls In

Super bowl Sunday was just a few days ago, I watched the game and enjoyed my day off work. So I told myself that I wasn’t going to spend Valentines alone. I told myself that I had 14 days to find a date and well I decided that I don’t need a date, date. As long as I am with the one’s I love it’s all good; and it looks like I’m going to be spending Valentines with Baby Kuno and my cousin Cindy. I love them both and can’t wait to see them again; I miss those long talks with Cindy.

Guess who's Back/Recap

Hey blog buddies, it’s been so long since I last posted here. I think my last post was back in 2007. What happen to me all of 2008 [scratches head], well I’m officially back and getting ready to recap the first month of 2009.

2008 was a really challenging year for me; I actually came out to my family and had my first public boyfriend. That alone was something huge for me, I didn’t know if they were still going to accept me but they did and they all seemed good about it. I had been dating Jake since August of 2008, he was something else and I thought he was a real different guy then any of the other guys I was talking to. The holiday season seemed great; Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Years were all a great time with friends and family and then hit the New Year. The relationship seemed to be getting to me and I was frustrated with the long distance thing I just didn’t know what else to do anymore so I asked Jake to break up. It was one of the hardest things for me to do but I did it and then I regretted it; we talked and worked things out but things weren’t the same for us anymore. He changed and so did I but we still stuck together and then he was set to come stay with me for a week at my place; I was hoping that this would fix the problems between us but it was too late.

Since the first day he arrived that Thursday the kiss was different, before I felt like he was pushing me away but it was all in my head. The only thing was, it wasn’t in my head anymore; he was actually pushing me away. I really didn’t want to think much of it; that Thursday night we decided to head out to a local club the Heist. It was Jake, I and my buddy Diego; before heading out there we got some alcohol. I’m not much of a drinker myself, it’s never interest me but since the guys were drinking I was like okay let’s have a drink and have some fun. We finally got to the club and finishing that bottle of MD was hard for me, in Brooke’s own words “I ruined my good boy Image.” I was buzzing by the time we got out the car, the club was great, the music was great, and I really had a great time. The next few days Jake and I did lots of things. We headed to Hollywood and Highland, we shopped, we eat, we golfed, we dance, we drank, we went to the movies, and we did everything together. Then that Saturday hit, we were drinking with Diego, he eventually left and all I wanted from Jake was a kiss or for us to make out for a little while. But he didn’t want to, he kept pushing me away, and then we got in an argument. And I decided to leave him alone, I walked over to my bed room and I just couldn’t take it anymore I figure we should have just stayed broke up but I did love the guy and I thought he loved me back. Being drunk only made things worse. I called up my friend or these days she’s been my best friend Brooke, I called her up all drunk and crying; let’s just say it wasn’t cute. Jake kept thinking I was acting like this because we hadn’t had sex, but I could care less about sex. I don’t crave it nor needed it at the moment, Brooke really did help me out that night she really is a good friend [Thanks, Brooke.]

The next day Jake didn’t seem to bring up the drama from the previous night, which was a bit odd for me but I was like whatever’s about it. We continued with the rest of the week and we seemed to be spending let time interacting. He seemed to be checking his myspace, adam4adam, mocospace, and downerlink or something and texting. He was always texting 24/7; that was one of the things I found really disrespectful. There’s a time to text and there’s a time not to txt but me being a good boyfriend I let him do his thing. It was the day before he was going to head back home, we were set to head to Dance at arena. I asked Jake since it was his last night if when he got home we could make out a bit, I basically had to beg and after a while he was like “Yeah okay.” The day went on and we eventually began to get ready for the club, he then told that he had invited one of his little MySpace friends to the club, which was fine by me. And then while we were getting ready he was like “Babe, is it okay if I kiss Luis or if he kisses me?” I got made because Jake was out here with me for an entire week and I basically had to beg for us to make out.

I always knew what type of guy Jake was, he seems like he’s always talking to all sorts of guys. But I thought at least while he’s around me he doesn’t do that. And I asked him “Is what you want, and open relationship?” He questioned it and I knew that’s what he wanted but he wasn’t able to say yes, then he went on, how hard it was the whole long distance thing. And yeah I know this wasn’t going to be easy but I wasn’t whiling to make it work out. So were there talking about our relationship and we ended up deciding to continue getting ready and talking about it later. So we meet up with Diego his girlfriend and a friend of his. We head out to Dance and arrive there, he had our drinks and eventually head to the club; or so we thought. They didn’t let anyone of us in because they said we were drunk, I thought the whole thing was funny; we decided to head back home. By this time Jake was so drunk and wasted; we arrive back to Bellflower and decided to smoke some weed, but Jake wasn’t feeling so good. I guess he had too much to drink, and he was throwing up and I was right there beside him taking care of him. Jake tells me that he doesn’t want to smoke so I tell Diego to take us home; we arrive to my place and Jake just wants to sleep. So I put him to bed and then I decide this is the perfect chance to over look his phone and I did just that. When it comes to his phone Jake never lets me see it so I figured that this was my one chance, so I start going over some of his text messages. That’s when I saw all the messages that he had with all these other guys, like I said before I knew what type of guy he was all along. I just didn’t want to see it, but reading the messages really hurt me. I knew then that it was really over. The next morning we drove out to the bus station and I so wanted to tell him that it was over between us but it was hard.

But then we decided on being friends, it was hard to see him leave because I knew that it would be the last time I would see him. But I knew that it was the best thing for me, I felt that while being with Jake I was begging to chance. I was changing to make him happy; before Jake alcohol and smoking wasn’t something I did. I wish the guy [Jake] well and I hope he finds someone that truly makes him happy; as for me I’m doing a lot better now. I actually got back to my writing and decided to return to my photography, so as you see the first month of 2009 was a real big month for me; it was the first for lots of things. I’ll be posting at least once a week and talk about my daily things, I know that 2009 while bring so much more.