Young Hollywood

So last Saturday Ramone and I went out with Jessica, Eloisa and Eliana; the five of us intended to go to this one club ‘Bang’ the five of us had been wanting to go out as a group and just enjoy the night but for some weird reason every time we had plans as a group, we would end up breaking off the plans. Everything seemed set for Saturday though that was until Eloisa told us she couldn’t make it. I personally was a bit on the sad side because it seemed like we were never going to get that night with where all 5 of us can hang out. I continued my day; I worked both the law from job and fye from 9am until 9pm. Until a longs day of work I headed home, showered and then got ready and hung out with Jessica until we waited for Ramone to arrive “&of course it was fashionably late.” We then headed off to pick up both Eliana and Eloisa; the car ride was a bit fun as Jessica told us about her relationship with Geo; when we finally arrived for Eliana we waited, then waited, followed by some more waiting and then after waiting so much for her to get out the house and in the car we decided to leave and pick up Eloisa. According to Jessica Elo lived down the street; which actually we figured out it meant down the street, around the corner, to the right and left on the first street; lol. Elo got inside the car said her hellos and then we were driving back to Eliana’s house; as we drove up to Eliana’s house I noticed a little small person sitting on the grass. I turned and asked Jessica if that was Eliana and she was like no I don’t think so; and then this little body stands up and I was like it is Eliana. We all laughed as we walked inside the car and took her seat between Elo and Jessica; we then were off to this club Ramone was taking us to. Some where as we were driving and the girls were doing their make up and talking very loud about everything and anything Elo was like we need to stop at the bank to take out some money; Eliana then said there was a bank near by. Ramone drove there which was our first encounter with hitting a car and the girls of course all had a screaming fest; lol. Once we where done at the bank we headed out to Hollywood to club bang and we were all ready to dance and drink the night away. At some point and time we met up with Juan; Jessica's old friend and my friend as well "I always said he was my bro." He arrived in Hollywood and bought our drinks and met up with Juan and his two friends Chris and some other dude (I forgot his name.) We looked for the club but got lost; even the gps wasn't helping (x lOl. We drove up and down Hollywood Blvd for like and hour and once again we almost crashed into a car; Ramone was on the left lane to turn left but was going straight forward and then all three girls screamed for their life. It was both scary and funny at the same time; we eventually found out that the address for club Bang was a bakery; we saw another group of people looking for the same club. They ended telling us that there was another club a few blocks away so we headed that way; Eliana was like oh turn left on this street and looking for parking. So Ramone did that; and we found parking as we got off we asked the guard where was the block he said it was four blocks away. The girls couldn't believe we were actually going to work four blocks; but the walk was fun. Ramone &I talked, Elo &Eliana walked hand in hand taking pictures, Jessica &Juan caught up and Chris &that guy talked and walked together. We saw a lot of interesting people as we walked to the club; as we walked I looked around a the group of friends and couldn't help but smile. These are the types of friends that matter the most, that keep a smile on your face, that make you laugh, that make your night enjoyable. We finally reached the club we all talked caught up; laughed a few more time and then in the middle of all this a girl fight broke out while waiting in line. Like always a the entire line grew around the girl fight and then the security walked over and sprayed pepper spray to break the fight; that made us get out of the line because we were all coughing nonstop; by this time it was already close to 1am and we were not feeling this club so we decided to walk all down Hollywood Blvd and find a place to eat. We found a Tommy's; some of the group got inline to order as I sat down with Elo &Eliana; we had a fun little conversation and they asked me to take like a billion pictures of them. So me being a good bff I did (x Ramone the came down &sat next to me and then both Elo &Eliana wanted to know the story how Ramone &I met so we told them; our food was soon ready and we all began to eat. After we all finished up we decided to call it a night we we walked back to the parking lot; Ramone then told me that while he was in line to order our food Jessica was talking to him; she told Ramone that he better not hurt me. I thought it was so cute and funny; Jessica has always been there for me; when it comes to my relationships. Once we reached the parking lot; we said our goodbyes to Juan, Chris, and that other dude. Then Elo, Jessica, Eliana, Ramone, &I drove away into the midnight sky.

Over all the night was a fun, adventure; I had the most fun in a very long time. Those three girls together made me laugh so much, and I can't wait for our next fun night out and this time we have to have the camera on; filming every single thing (x

the danny

Stop the Hate

Hey everyone, Ramone here.
this post isn't of the usual things I post about.
This post is more about how incredibly close-minded
people are still. I am in so much disbelief at what happened
to Roger-Danny and I the other day.
Here's what happened..

I had picked up Roger-Danny from work && we were
going back to his house so he could change.
As we park in front of his house, we talk about what we
are going to do for the afternoon.
Roger-Danny pulls me over for a quick hug.
A HUG. A hug that is given to anyone that
anyone loves, i.e., family, a brother, a sister, a lover.
A universal hug.
As I pull away from the hug, a car pulls in to the neighbors
drive-way. I had noticed the guy looking at us
strangely but I laughed it off.
As they got out of their car, a woman came out && yelled something
very inappropriate at Roger-Danny and I.
We continued to ignore it && shrug it off.
But as we talked in the car, things started feeling uneasy.
The woman kept yelling things at us, && the man she was
with walked over by my car, && typed something on
his phone && walked away.
Soon after you hear the woman calling someone
&& I'm assuming it was the police she called,
but i could be wrong. None-the-less, she continued to
describe us to the person at the
other end of the line. The rest of her conversation on the phone became
unclear, but it was surely about Roger-Danny and I.
As she said her final words, she walked in the house and it was over.
We remained in the car; in silence. We said we were fine, but
the truth was we felt an array of emotions: anger, fear, sadness, confusion,
disappointment, discouragement, && worst of all, hurt.
Hurt that people who had their own life, would dare
try and intervene in someone else. I have heard stories
of gay people being told things, && be put down by
society, but we have never experienced it for ourselves.
I gained a whole new appreciation for the gay
community, && our life long struggle to be equally accepted
by society. Why shouldn't we be?
Do we not have a family, too?
Do we not love, too?
Do we not feel pain, too?
Do we not have the essence of a living soul?
What makes us so different than "straight" people?
Just because we believe love has no boundaries?
I've always detested the gay community because of the negative
image they made for themselves, but I see now that they need
a positive image to be made through the many people
who fight everyday for our equality. I will be joining this fight by
participating in the NOH8 Campaign. For a better future for the gay community.
For a better future for Roger-Danny and I.

I will keep you all updated.
Thank you for listening.
&& to my friends who have always loved
&& supported me, you have my much appreciated thanks.

Mkaythankyou
Bye

-Ramone

One More Time

So today I figured I would post a cute short post along with a video that
Ramone and I <3 this video was taken a while back. Lately I've been
Spending all my time at his place and its starting to feel a bit like
Home only a bit more messy; I tell him I can help him clean
His room but he doesn't let me (x alright I have three new
Blogs I'm currently working on. "Bisexuality, Lost in
Hollywood, and 5yrs Later."

Until next time.
-the danny (x

March recap and more...

So I know I forgot to recap all of last month; and I feels kind of
Pointless to recap it now; so all I'm going to say for last month
Is that; I'm learning a lot about myself. As a son, brother, uncle,
Cousin, &especially boyfriend. Life is been giving me new challenges
And I'm loving them (x &then this month is basically the same.
Each day I learn something new, &I get a little wise &smarter.

I've been learning a lot about myself &with that comes learning
And seeing who my real friends are. The people I thought that
Would always be by my side and all vanished &then the people
I thought wouldn't last have somehow stuck around (;
It sucks when you have always been there for a friend
And then when you need thme for support they aren't
There; it isn't the best feeling. I've recently met two
Pretty amazing new friends; they make me laugh.
Just hearing their stories &such is so much fun.
And I'm sure that they will stick for a while.

Alright I don't really have much else to
Say; so until my next blog (x.

-Danny

"What Is Love"

Hey everyone, Ramone here.
So I was looking through some blogs
&& I came across one that caught my attention
He had written about love && the meaning it
held for him when he was young
&& the meaning it had for him now.
They way he talked about it really put a lot
of my own feelings && beliefs into perspective.
It was like someone had read my mind &&
wrote down the perfect words for my feelings
for Roger.
The blog is quite long, so I took my favorite
part from it:

"For me, to be in “like” with someone now isn’t about kissing.
It’s not about teasing. It’s not about notes. It’s not about cheesy pick-up lines.
Rather, it’s about nurturing a relationship so that
it can find its way to the next phase: love.
It has many of the same characteristics of love..
simply because it’s on the path to love. It’s about caring.
It’s about doing what’s necessary to please the other and make her happy.
It’s about swallowing the pride. It’s about listening.
It’s about communicating. It’s about being honest and open.
It’s about uplifting, inspiring and motivating. It’s at the doorstep of love.

It feels good to know that I'm on a road that leads to love. A narrow road.

A road traveled by few. A road that leads to a bridge. On the other side of that bridge is true love. A land where what appears to be beautiful, really is. It’s not a land for fools nor foolishness. It’s not a land of trade nor traitors. It’s a land for love, not “likers.” I’ve followed the signs on the road. I’ve obeyed the laws of travel. I’ve listened the the buzz of sweet bees on the other side. I know i’m going the right direction. I’m not going too fast. I’m not going too slow. I’m not letting the weather delay me, the temptations deter me, or the bumps impede me. One day…i’ll get there.

It all starts by getting on that road. It could be long. It could be short. But the only way one can get on that road is if he goes after “Sarah Mckinzer.” No one needs to be quite the weirdo that I was. But staying awake when everyone else is asleep, moving when everyone is still, and touching when no one dares touch. That’s what will lead to the bridge. That’s what will lead to the love. To fail while no one else attempted is in itself a success. And that’s what makes the road so narrow.

I won’t say i’m in love. But I feel pretty darn close. I really “like” a girl. And i’m going after her. I’ve entered the game…and she’s rolling the dice. I’ve put myself on a limb, she’s out there dangling with me. I’m on the road that leads to love, and she’s putting gas in the car. We’ll see how long it lasts. We’ll see how bumpy the road is. And perhaps….we’ll see how sweet the other side of the bridge is.

I think the bridge is close. Cuz I’m falling hard.

Don’t let love find you. You go find love."

-Mickey Lee Hagen

This was how I felt when I first started to get close to Roger.. Now we're at the other side of that bridge, happily.

being happy...

bff's

So yesterday I had a conversation with a friend &it went a little something like this (x

Friend A = That's it., im done with games && dishonestyy! He loves me && hes been too real. The least i can do is give him my 100% if not more!

Friend B = what u gna doo? Confess?

Friend A = hell fuccn no! Ama just give him my full attention I love him! Todayy is the day im getting everything together. Wake up call

Friend C = "Cough" Never confess; just leave it in the past. Just don't do it anymore. Don't loose what you have

Pause

Friend A = omgosh you know?! Thankk you! Im sooooo. doing that!

Friend C = No idk anything; just saying by the way you said things I can tell. Just love &respect what you have right now (x love is an amazing thing Ps. &it hurts when you loose it all by a mistake. Just love &respect &honor (x

Friend A = honor? That sounds like a samurai word! Lol && yes you are right BFF. Gotta hold on to real love! (: <333

Friend C = like a samurai (x lOl. Well I'm always here bff for anything <333

Friend A = Thankk yoou! (; you get to be the shoulder i wil cry on! Lol

Friend C = Yes <3

Dancing with the Stars

"Dancing with the Stars 2010," Season 10, returns with a brand new lineup and all new surprises along with all the elements viewers have come to know and love. The "Dancing with the Stars 2010" lineup for Season 10 includes Buzz Aldrin, Pamela Anderson, Erin Andrews, Shannen Doherty, Kate Gosselin, Aiden Turner, Evan Lysacek, Niecy Nash, Chad Ochocinco, Jake Pavelka, and Nicole Scherzinger. Each week on "Dancing with the Stars", the celebrity and professional dance pairs will perform live choreographed Latin, traditional and contemporary ballroom dance routines to popular live music played by a 17-piece orchestra, led by musical director Harold Wheeler. Viewers may cast their votes for their favorite teams on "Dancing with the Stars" Season 10 via phone on Monday night during and up to 30 minutes after the "Dancing with the Stars" performance shows. AT&T customers may also text message their votes by texting the word "VOTE" and entering the number that corresponds to the team they want to support.

I've been a fan of the show since its premiered season; I only started watching because of the lovely Kelly Monaco; I saw her from being the underdog to taking the trophy home and ever since then I've been following the show because of favorite celebrities, such as: Mario Lopez, Melanie Brown, Ian Ziering, Josie Maran, Shannon Elizabeth, Mario, Kim Kardashian, Lance Bass, Denise Richards, Jennie Garth, Steve-O, Sabrina Bryan, Melissa Rycroft, Melissa Joan Hart, and Mýa. When they announced the line up for season 10; I was so excited because I knew almost every single celeb and I was so excited that Shannen Doherty, Aiden Turner, and Nicole about to show America their dance moves. I made sure to tell everyone I was "Team Shannen Doerty first then Aiden followed by Nicole; and I was so mad when Shannen was votes of first and then Aiden was voted off third now its all up to Nicole; I'm still watching the show and keeping up with it even though my favorite two have been voted off...now its up to Nicole to win it (x

stickwitu - remix

"Stickwitu (Avant Remix)"

Mmm...
C'mon

[Verse 1 - PCD]
I don't wanna go another day,
So I'm telling you exactly what is on my mind.
Seems like everybody's breakin' up,
They're throwin' their love away.
But I know I got a good thing right here,
That's why I say...hey

[Chorus - PCD w/Avant]
Nobody gon love me better
I'ma stickwitu forever
Nobody gon take me higher
I'ma stickwitu
You know how to appreciate me
I'ma stickwitu, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way,
I'ma stickwitu

[Verse 2 - Avant]
Through everything goin on
We're right here holdin on
To one another.
The reason why I love you,
Ya charm and personality
I love your sensitivity.
Hmm let me take a second,
cuz I'll be your love & essence.
Only,
Wanna hear your voice speak,
When I feel your body heat,
Love every minute of it.
You're like the fresh air,
when it feels like no one cares
That's why I say...

[Chorus - PCD (w/Avant)]
Nobody gon love me better (Nobody's gon love me better)
I'ma stickwitu forever (Ohh No)
Nobody gon take me higher (Nobody)
I'ma stickwitu (No)
You know how to appreciate me (I know you love me)
I'ma stickwitu, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way, (Ohh)
I'ma stickwitu (Nobody)

[Bridge - PCD (w/Avant)]
And now,
Ain't nothin else I could need (nothin' else I could need)
And I'm,
singin 'cuz you're still so into me
I got you,
we'll be making love endlessly
I'm with you (Baby I'm witchu),
Baby you're with me (Baby you're with me)

So don't you worry about
People hanging around,
They ain't bringing us down

[Avant]
Baby talk to me
'cuz all I'm here to say is
I'll be right here for forever and a day, hey

[Chorus - PCD (w/Avant)]
Nobody gon love me better
I'ma stickwitu forever
Nobody gon take me higher
I'ma stickwitu (C'mon)
You know how to appreciate me (Nobody, Nobody)
I'ma stickwitu, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way,
I'ma stickwitu

[Avant] You're a shelter in the storm
[PCD] I'm right here
[Avant] Keepin' me away from harm
[PCD] I'm never gonna leave you
[Avant] You're a song with beautiful words
[PCD] I'm your song
[Avant] Something that I never heard
[PCD] Yeahh

[Chorus - PCD (w/Avant)]
You know how to appreciate me (You know how to appreciate me)
I'ma stickwitu, my baby (I love you, you're my baby)
Nobody ever made me feel this way (Ohh),
I'ma stickwitu

Youtube "Here We Come"

We are more than just an Elevator

So its been a little while since I posted a blog; I've been a pretty busy, with the boyfriend, work, family, and other things. I felt like today I was just going to blog; about a few things on my mind. You know when you start a new relationship you are so taken by everything they do, say, and bring to the relationship. There's so many positive and/or great things that come from a new relationship; I've learn so much about Ramone; and there is still so much more than I will learn with time. But with that being said there's also learn those little things that bother him and bother me; the things that might get us mad/upset. The disagreements between us is what I dislike the most; and most of the time its over stupid stuff but we get caught up in the moment; by that we realize we are both already upset. Everyone knows I'm a big Pussycat Dolls fan; I've listen to their song "Elevator" over a million times but never really put much thought into it. But a few weeks ago; I actually paid attention to the lyrics and it was exactly how I had been feeling and at the moment still feel.

I love Ramone; I honestly really do. I've have a few number of relationships; I've been hurt, I've hurt, but I have never love like this. Only once did I think I was in love. But looking back at it; it wasn't in love. I was in love with the idea of being in love with someone; I truly love this guy, he makes me happy. But then there's times that a simple word, a sentence or look he does brings me down; and I know he doesn't mean to do that. That isn't his intention at all; but it just makes me feel so low. I don't know what it is but sometimes I still feel like he isn't 100% happy with me as a boyfriend; like the things I'm lacking he could easly find elsewhere. But he keeps telling me that there's no one else better for him; but he says things like: "I just want to get to know you, I feel like I still don't know you like your friends know you." "Cheer me up your my boyfriend..." "Open up to me..." "You aren't being yourself today..." or when he says that I take everything he says too serious; or "You honestly don't know how much I love you, you have no idea." That one hurts the most because me makes me feel like my love for him isn't as good as his love for me. But I mean I try to look at the positive; even though its hurtful in the moment; I see it as "This is just part of growing in a relationship; this is just a little rough start."

"Elevator" by: The Pussycat Dolls

"...Sometimes I think I'm so low
Think you don't want me no more
And I've gotta get up off this see-saw

Like an elevator, we go up,
and we go down Down, down,
like an elevator
We touch the sky and
touch the ground Ground, ground
like an elevator
You're stuck on one
while I'm pressing three
Then we end up on the fourth floor
And then we disagree
Then you keep on blamin' me
But I wish that you would see
that I'm just trying to elevate you
Like an elevator

And I feel like we're speaking two different languages
It's hard to read ya, read ya, read ya
But I know if you at least try to make it half way
I swear that I'll meet ya, meet ya, meet ya
But we can't have a conversation without beefing
Yellin' back and forth for no good reason
I won't let you leave
and you keep asking me to stay
One of us better figure out what we want
Cause I'm getting a headache, headache, headache

...Sometimes I think I'm so low
Think you don't want me no more
And I've gotta get up off this see-saw

Like an elevator, we go up,
and we go down Down, down,
like an elevator
We touch the sky and
touch the ground Ground, ground
like an elevator
You're stuck on one
while I'm pressing three
Then we end up on the fourth floor
And then we disagree
Then you keep on blamin' me
But I wish that you would see
that I'm just trying to elevate you
Like an elevator

Oh if there's any man who understands what I'm saying
Won't you help me Say yeah, yeah, yeah
Oh there's gotta be some women who feeling the way I'm feeling
Say yeah, yeah, yeah
I'll take the blame if it that'll make this road stop
I'll hold for you if we can make it to the top
But we gotta find a way to break down these walls baby
I'm waitin' on you, stop waitin' on me
Damn this elevator

We go up,
and we go down Down, down,
like an elevator
We touch the sky and
touch the ground Ground, ground
like an elevator
You're stuck on one
while I'm pressing three
Then we end up on the fourth floor
And then we disagree
Then you keep on blamin' me
But I wish that you would see
that I'm just trying to elevate you
Like an elevator."

I listen to this song today; on replay for over two hours and I noticed a verse in the lyrics "I'll take the blame if it that'll make this road stop. I'll hold for you if we can make it to the top. But we gotta find a way to break down these walls baby. I'm waitin' on you, stop waitin' on me. Damn this elevator." I know it will take time getting to know one another (even more.) I just hope that these disagreements would go away already but its part of a relationship; no couple is perfect. All I know is that "I love Ramone, he means the world to me and I can honestly say I've found my life long partner and I'm not letting him go and I won't let him get rid of me without a fight."

Just Remember

Hey everyone, Ramone here.
I've learned over the last two months
that a lot of hard work goes into a relationship.
&& I mean a REAL relationship. What I used to think was a relationship,
doesn't even compare to what I'm learning now.
There are always going to be good && bad times.
Especially if it's with someone you share your entire being with.
You learn things about each other, && you talk about things that you've never
considered before. The experiences make you wiser, && more open minded to
a point-of-view other than your own. You learn to put aside your own selfishness
for once, && start thinking about someone special instead.
&& of course, the arguments.
The arguments are never fun, && we try to do
everything in our power to stop them.
By the time you realize it's time to avoid one, though,
you're already too deep in it, && must
now find the words to make things right.
We never have the intention in hurting someone
special, things just happen sometimes
where ideas && spoken words get
mixed around && misunderstood.
It could be things like a tone of voice,
or sloppy wording, or you're just in the moment
where you don't know it's happening.
Regardless of what it may be, though,
there are always going to be disagreements.
But the one most important thing to remember,
no matter what is said && happens..
always remember "I LOVE YOU."